Saturday, February 2, 2008

Yes.I loved...

Where was I? Why is there so much silence? I missed this place.I know,lost I was in a world of lies.Thought it would be a one way street but never imagined that I would be walking back...alone.Its even more shattering when I find my past linger like a haze in front of me.I wished to go to heaven, but I should have thought for once-"you need to die to go to heaven".

The congealed scent of love is slowly fading,the sanguine blood has turned dark;crushed beneath a strange guilt I try to embrace pain ...may be that will tell me if I am alive.The tears still ask my faith a thousand questions.
I want to hold my body,I want to love myself.So much pain it took,so many scars it has now.It shivered like a lonely child ,crying for that warmth.And there was no one to swaddle me.The white trail of tears glistening like a dried rivulet of pearls on my cheeks.I want to live now.Live like I have never before.


It hasn't changed much,I can still catch-up.The rain waited so long to drench me;I won't keep you waiting now.The songs are playing ,the same way I had left them;am waiting for the next crescendo and I will join in.The dappled sun rays on my face ,embracing my countenance.The gentle breeze slowly making the last tear feel like a dew drop.Eyes still hurting but bear a broken smile.I can feel my touch now,the way I used to run my hand over my face.I can feel my feet now,they blades of grass kissing them.
Listen ,someone is trying to mutter something...its slowly beating....who is it?Stupid me !Its my heart,its so close to me.It was always there.Sorry,I lost you in my madness.
My small room is breathing with me.Waiting for the night when we will talk with each other and we will look for the dreams to knock on the door.And then the silence will sing a lullaby for us.I missed that lullaby.
I missed you life.Forgive me...Embrace me with all your heart.All I want to see is you.All I want to live is you.All I want to feel is you.Forgive me.I love you life...I will keep the promises I made to you.I will.Just don't give me those prejudiced eyes...I feel guilty...


"Its awfully simple to fall in love but its simply awful to fall out of it"

8 comments:

Ashu said...

gooood letter, loved it :)

Aditi ''Jiggs'' said...

Bravoooo!!!!

The last line is simple amazing
nice read:)

cheers

d SINNER!!! said...

nice read...

but i believe whenever u give urslf a chance, you do fall in love!

Cheers!

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soumya mukerji said...

:) Nice...

"fiZZ"ing iNsiDE !!! said...

@Jiggs
Thanx Jiggs.Somethings are better confessed on a paper.

@Sinner
There's nothing you can do when the cupid marks you.You start thinking with your heart and feel with your mind.Isn't it?

@Soumya
Thanx.

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